y copy of Mastery arrived in the mail yesterday, and I'm looking forward to digging in. Also arriving in the mail yesterday was my first matching bra and panty set in I can't remember how long. The art of wearing matching bras and panties is indeed something I am trying to master, so I'm off to a good start. (Don't scoff, gentlemen - it's much more difficult than it seems.)

What I'm most in need of mastering, though, is my tendency to procrastinate. I'm normally pretty good at turning work around on time, but lately I've been putting it off and making myself miserable with the stress. I'm getting tense and worried over deadlines, yet I seem to not be able to resist finding out why Axl Rose was jailed in Stockholm. Okay, that story was kind of worth it, but still.

Sometimes I feel that whether or not I sit down to work is beyond my control. I can check in with myself and observe the level of readiness to get down to business, and I can feel it coming on when I'm about to be productive. Unfortunately until that feeling becomes strong enough to act, I don't know what to do but procrastinate in the meantime. I'd like to discover the ability to turn on the feeling of productivity at will, so that it doesn't feel like I'm disciplining a little kid when I need to start working, but that I'm ready to bring my full attention to a task willingly, as a mature adult. I'll let you know how it goes.